My Love for Sn@pe..

..has never wavered. It is the same as Snape's loyalty to the Dumbledore. Even for days after reading the last book, I still feel a great loss and sadness towards Snape and some others who have died. There is 1 chapter (my fav chapt) in the book that talk about snape in detail, but it is enough to make my eyes sour.

When young, Snape loses his childhood love, Lily who is Harry's mum, to James. Maybe that is why Snape abhors James and Sirius. Snape used to be on Voldemort's side, and he tells Voldy about the prophecy made by Prof Trelawney. Voldy thinks Harry is the chosen one and wants to kill the potter family. Snape regrets doing so as he has gotten his love Lily into mortal danger and he asks Voldy to spare Lily but kill the others. Voldy doesn't agree and Snape seeks Dumbledore's help. From that day onward, Snape swears total allegiance to Dumbledore and helps to protect Harry from harm. He chants against Prof Quirell when he jinxes Harry's broom, he remains with Dumbledore when Karkaroff flees with the increasing clear Dark Mark on his arm, he helps Dumbledore when Dumbledore is cursed by a ring and he only has less than a year to live! He obeys on Dumbledore's order to kill him at an appropriate time and has to carry a label of a betrayer when he isn't. He has to continue his dangerous spying job at Voldy to make sure he would attain the post of headmaster in book 7 to fulfil Dumbledore's wish of ensuring the safety of Hogwarts students! OMG! So 伟大。Nobody except Dumbledore knows the sacrifice Snape has been making. Except towards the end when the truth is revealed. Not only those, in the quest to attain the Horcruxes, Snape sends a Patronus of a silver doe to help harry. That patronus is the same as Lily's. But at that point of time, Harry doesn't know that it was from snape! Here is the part which is ever so touching..This happens before the death of dumbledore in book 6.

Dumbledore opened his eyes. Snape looked horrified.
“You have kept him alive so that he can die at the right moment?”
“Don’t be shocked, Severus. How many men and women have you watched die?”
“Lately, only those whom I could not save,” said Snape. He stood up. “You have used me.”
“Meaning?”
“I have spied for you and lied for you, put myself in mortal danger for you. Everything was supposed to be to keep Lily Potter’s son safe. Now you tell me you have been raising him like a pig for slaughter – ”
“But this is touching, Severus,” said Dumbledore seriously. “Have you grown to care for the boy, after all?”
“For him?” shouted Snape. “Expecto Patronum!”
From the tip of his wand burst the silver doe. She landed on the office floor, bounded once across the office, and soared out of the window. Dumbledore watched her fly away, and as her silvery glow faded he turned back to Snape, and his eyes were full of tears.
“After all this time?”
“Always,” said Snape.

And Snape has stolen a letter written to Sirius from Lily which bears her signature. OMG! I think Snape should have been Harry's Guradian Angel as well as Godfather. He has done more than what Sirius, James and Lupin all together have done for Harry. Sob sob.