Everyday :-(

I really have no idea what I want in life. I am still young. I live life as mundane as just passing every another day. Each day is such a similarly normal everyday, not a happy day, occasionally a sad one.

Why am I not so happy everyday? Because there's something wrong with me?

I feel I am becoming more of a grumpy person, so I went out to have fun. Don't know why I am still feeling the same after that. How can I be a happier person?

I am not a Good Horse

There's this saying, 好马不吃回头草, and by going back to that place, I am not a good horse. I have heeded the advice of many - 骑驴找马, haiz. Its a different position and still a contract. I don't like it here, the only thing that I like, is at the end of the month :-(

No more motivation, feeling tired every night, moody all day.. these are signs that tell me that, I have to continue seeking.

Jia You, Jon!

I can RIDE~~

The most rewarding thing happened to me throughout the incomeless period, is learning how to ride on a bicycle.

I finally can ride on a normal size one, on my 4th attempt. Yeah, I am happy to the max. I am thinking of buying a cheap bike (of course not now), to ride at the connector park in my neighbourhood for leisure. One thing holding me back is the space constraint in my house, and I don't like the idea of putting my things on the corridor outside.

And also my b day is over. I thought it would be a sad one, again due to my incomelessness. However, it was quite ok. Though I did rot at home. Heheh.

Keep Trying, Don't Give Up!

Jon Jon, please persevere!

Sianz to the max, to browse through those ads everyday. Repeated ads, and many do not suit me, or rather, I am not eligible for many of those postings out there. Please give me luck.

Extremely sad

Dear Blog,

I am very sad today. I feel unwanted, insulted and pathetic. Confused too. You have not heard me say 'Life simply sucks!" for years. Until now.

Sadly,
Jon

No income

I now think thrice before spending. I am so cham. No happy things happen :(

I Love this Pic

Ever since I took this pic with my cellphone, I quite often open this pic to admire it. Haha. The one in blue is the bike I rode on for the past 3 sessions. I know, its a small one, but I hope to try riding a slightly bigger one.

From young, I had wanted to learn cycling, but I had no chance to learn it. Nobody to teach me, no bike for me to ride on... I like the feeling of wind blowing at my face, thus I knew I would enjoy cycling, just like, playing on a swing. I also like non air-conditioned bus, I would open the windows and let the wind get me. Haha. But now, many buses are air-con ones.. Only those buses running those industrial routes are w/o air-con.

Ok, here's the pic.

The dreaded cny

This is the most dreaded cny in my life. Anyway, hope my luck can be good in the drag0n yr. I have been doing spring-cleaning quite on and off every few days, where can i find motivation to do it? Anyway, luck, please come to me.. Huat ar!

End of the Year

Few more days to go before the new year comes, I am not thrilled esp in my current state of zuo-bo-ness. Nevertheless, I hope the coming year would be a good one for me. Needless to say what my resolution for the new year is, I also hope that life would be healthy and peaceful for us. As I grow older, what I want in life is getting simpler. I don't expect alot, just happiness.

An irrelevant thing I want to write on my blog, is that I had a weird dream nights ago. I dreamt I was going for an intvw, but not sure why I was being accompanied by ppl whom I know, I kept looking around for the intvw venue but just couldn't! I was very sad, I was missing the intvw. Then I went home and found out that the HR had sent me an email saying that the intvw was postponed because she was sick, haha. And yay! How lucky.

Why is it so hard to get a j0b?

Why why? Please tell me why? Why do employers expect you to know this and know that, and never like to groom inexperienced? Why are they so selfish? Want people to contribute but never contribute in the learning and development of the young workers?

Any employers, care to take me in??

My Short Ba+am Trip..

I went on 19th and stayed over 1 night. It was quite a rushed trip, as we were on a tour. At that ferry terminal, we were gathered by local tour guide.

First, went to Ralph Lauren P0lo shop. Things there aren't cheap. Not worth buying.









Next, were brought to Dry market that sells tidbits like keropok. Prices there are higher than at supermarket at mall, which I only found out at the end of the day.

Then, next was Buddhist temple.









Seafood lunch at some 555 kelong restaurant, if I didn't rmb the name wrongly. Quite Ok. Crab, gong gong, fish, fried sotong, fried prawn, fruits and coconut drink.










There was a v short show after lunch.

It was very hot over there in the afternoon. Can barely stay for long at the min|ature house, which is just a garden/park, with many small model houses.

Next stop was the Chinese temple.









After which, we went to Batik shop and factory out|et shop.

Then we were brought to Ba+am C|ty Square ma||, which has more things to see/buy.

Lastly, to the hotel..










Free n easy starts so late. Dinner at nearby kelong restaurant. Then idled around.

Next morning, breakfast buffet which had not much things.

Finally Legs soaking at seaside, then headed back to where we come from....

Argh! So hard!

Wow... I can't believe it. Competition is so tough. I want to regain my spending power... when would that be?

Now I am having phobia le. I should be lucky like I all along was! Luck, where are you? Come to me, and save me from all the woes.. -_-'''

Its a nightmare, let me wake up from this!!!

I am a tourist

Whoohoo! I am a tourist in my own country.. for a day!









I went to MBS. The hotel room is at 31st floor but the view at the balcony was so-so as its just a view of the construction site, probably for theme park? See..









The Shoppe mall there is very mega.. and can get lost in there. I never stepped into any shop as they are all super high-end. Only went into C0ld St0rage~ Most of the shops are all serving mosquitoes, must be the price tag...












Then the main course is the Sky P@rk! Its a swimming pool at highest 57th floor. It a pity I don't know how to swim. Actually, its also no big thing to me.








Does it look scary to you, that if you swim near to the horizon, you will fall off from 57 storeys? But.. its safe... there's something below.









The went around to take photo of the bird's eye view.









From the sky bright to sky dark...


















Lastly, on the way back, crossed the he|ix brldge.

I have been down for so long

And the end must be drawing near!

Quick! Why hasn't my luck changed for the better? I am been quite down for sooo long... Come on! Stop playing on me. It's enough.

Go away, ill luck!

I so so so so so regret...

Now then I regret. Isn't it a bit too late to say this? I should have grabbed the opportunity then!

The market is bad. There are people being laid off. The worst time will come in months to come!

I must be suay. Please, I need a change of luck. I should be so lucky.

Best of Luck, Jon!

To Jon,

I wish you the Best-est of luck, for the two opportunities conferred to you. Hope you can cherish these opportunities, perform your very best, and win them over, with your charm, capabilities and confidence!

One of these, has to be the ONE. Please. I pray.

Sincerely,
Jon's fan.

My 5th intvw

To date, this is one of the worst intvws I had. I feel the people (intvwers) are slightly arrogant. Perhaps they are the political kind. Being in a big company, they seem proud of it, and have the elitism feeling.

It from the questions they ask, you can feel that there's some elitism in them. Examples.

Them: Have you ever applied to any of our companies before?
Me: No.
Them: Why not? (imply: OURS IS SUCH A BIG COMPANY) And need this agent to call you up to tell you about this opportunity?
Me: *Replied silently in my head, Duh! He called me up because I applied to the job in the first place! What stupid questions are you asking?

Them: What did you maj0r in?
Me: M|cr0 electrnics
Them: Oh, then why didn't you join *list other company's name*?
Me: I am open to that as well. (*Replied silently in my head that, ya I did apply to that company & I think I prefer joining that company to yours.)
Them: Haha, just kiding.

Them: Why was your contract not renewed? (imply: Haha cos I know you are lousy!! Heh. I will make you answer that)
Me: There was no headcount, and the economy will not be that g00d in the next quarter, so they were not hiring.
Them: Do you believe the reason they gave you? (imply: no no, I think real reason is that you are lousy)
Me: *Replied silently in my head, why are you asking this? You already have an impression that I am lousy, even if the reason is true, you would choose to believe that it was due to my incompetency. Waste my time talking to you, and my bus-fare.

Them: You will get a call if you are selected. Usually, there will be a total of 3 rounds of intvw, the last round will be with who-who-blah blah..
Me: *Replied silently in my head, I don't expect to get a call, even if I do, I am not interested anymore. I do not wish to work under you.
Them: If you do not get selected, I still want to thank you for your time.
Me: * Replied silently in my head, ya my time, wasted.

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It is true that I am getting v worried about my j0b. Seems hard. But even then, I still will not work under such boss. Neither does he want me anyway.

I run far far from this company....

The Job-seek|ng Experience that never ends...

Argh! When can I stop looking for a job? It is indeed very sian. Ok, I need to put it down here, so that during my next job search, I will remember that job-seeking is never an easy process, and always grab any opportunity that comes by!

Over thirty-something applications sent, so far only 4 responded with interviews. That about 10 percent. Oh no. This is so terrible.

Having said that, doesn't mean that I regret the decision made earlier in the offer. Well, its still early (though not really), to say whether it is a wrong decision or not, it depends on the next offer i get (which most probably I would take if any offer), if that new offer is better than the 1st one.

Yesterday, I went for my 4th interview. It was a very short one that last for 15 mins. I have never had such a short one. Usually means not much chance. I have problems finding companies which I can send application to.

Please bless me.

It has been very quiet

My last interview is so far the third company that has granted me an interview. I haven't had any calls lately. It is quite demoralising, am I so undesirable that my resum3 turns them off?

To be honest, I am starting to panick. The horror of being unemp|oyed for several months, the idleness and laziness I would have developed, make me realise I just want to work and be useful. I feel the pressure when people ask me if I have found a job. As I answered them, I would ask myself too, how come haven't? And then my confidence level got hit by several points down.

Ok, my third interview, I knew they weren't going to choose me. You can tell if they are interested in me. If they were, they would ask you many questions. Nevertheless, the interview was not too bad, the interviewers seem nice. Haha. Take it as a practice session.

I have run out of companies to send my application to. You know, I keep seeing the same adverts that, most of them, I have probably applied before. Yet no news, wasn't shortlisted, yet the adverts are still there. If you cannot find anyone, why don't you just take me? Or either, the turn over rate is high, nobody works for you for exceed 2 months? Then this must be a yucks job.

Jia you Jon!

I am very tired today.

Today I went for a 2nd-round intervw, and I got it. However, the pay is below my expectation. I have to think about it. Perhaps, won't be taking it up :-(

And I am sick today. Sneezed until my throat hurts, no mood to talk. Thus I am very tired. Also, partly it came from the disappointment of the low pay offered. Can you believe it? The pay increment from previous job is 3.8% for probation period. After probation, it would be 15.3%. Still very little. Really waste my time...Haiz. Where can I get a job that pays me decently and with interesting jobsc0pe?

Sianz, the thought of continuing to send resumes and waiting for calls. Zzzz. Off i go sneezing...Ah chooooooo~~~!!!