Friendship never knows decay?

"Friendship never knows decay"& "Friends Forever" are typical things written in Pri/Sec school autograph books. But how true is this?

I was doing some spring cleaning, looking through oldies stuff in my cabinet. Countless of cards, letters and bookmarks.. stuff which pri/sec school students love to write etc. Seeing these remind me of the time in primary school, when one first had the feeling of having friends. I assume, we are too young to be making friends in our kindergarten days... we were still blur blur.. though I still have impression of the kindergarten mates I had. I still rmb it was a nice and sincere feeling to make something, a card or some crafts for friends, when we were young. Stickers, colour pencils to decorate the art. And also, a "treasured" feeling when you receive something handmade (or even non-handmade stuff).

People change. I re-read a letter from a friend, and compare it now. Seems so diff. Also in my frustration, I also threw away something handmade from her. It was once a sincere thing, yet doesn't seem so to me now.

Another case, I re-read a letter from a friend, then I re-realised how nice the person is. Sadly, we are no longer in contact, each busy with our own lives.

As I grow older, I tend to look out in people, how nice/kind the person is, rather than how similar is our interest/hobby/common conversation. I find its harder to make gd frds, as we are no longer like pri sch kids that sincere to make friends. Sometimes socialise to make our work easier, want to make ourselves more popular, make our lives more interesting or some other superficial reasons. And also some forgetting old frds while making new ones. Maybe that is why, I don't like to socialise... you don't know what type of people you are meeting.

Randon Post: Dreading tmr

There will be a need to rush to get things done tmr. Hope I can find the right ppl and get it done. I never like doing things in a rush, seem so anyhow. And I realise my temper is quite short, I get irritated so easily.

What is wrong with me?

This aside, I read a book, which is quite sad, so I cried... Then I watched TV programme, also felt sad and cried. I downloaded an e-book and the story is about a pretty young girl, 上了贼船, married an elderly man, who was some figure in the illegal drug trafficking group, and how she led her life in horror and shame being locked up and abused by the guy whom she once thought, is the right man for her.

女怕嫁错郎。

Bruised-Chen

Wha-Tah.... I am not Bruce Lee, but I have bruises all over my legs. I kept injuring myself, accidentally knocked and hit myself against some other things.

And I am always so tired. Lack of sleep, due to my slow pace in doing things. In this year of 2011, I shall make an effort to be more disciplined and not idle so much. I will dote on myself more.. haha. Be less calculative to people around me. Try to be more calm, less kan chiong, in settling matters. More acceptance to others' views and opinions. Actually its not easy to achieve all these, though they sound convincing and realistic. Also, hope my mind will not wander so often, focus on what I should be focusing. Heh.